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| I wonder how my dad does it staying at the same company for over 30 years. It's been only a year i've been here and i still cannot get twined with my colleagues, what heck colleagues do i have.. only one immediate colleague. People just pissed me off so easily . Or maybe she's just trying so hard to pissed me off - oh well, she did a great job of pissing. And i can guarantee on my part, its not menstruation.
Its tough when you're fighting against the daily waves. Theres matters going on at work..church... people seems to be just picking fights. I have no intention or rather any concern with the happenings, so why 'burn my side'. The last place i thought anything painful or even idiotic would happen, just seemed to happened. I wonder whats the purpose behind it all. I wonder.
I just went to 1 day out of 3 day course of basic life training of some sort. And with the good reviews everyone gave, my boss made me go. I went the first day, i made a crappy story and went home. Just like at school main ponteng class. The course's wants to dig a person inner self, and make you face the facts of life and actually whats the purpose of living and everything happen in your life is because of your choice. First Day-Slaps you in the face/humiliate you. Day Two-Cry your lungs out/Dark Secrets revealed. Day Three-make you feel a bit better about yourself so you'll come to the next course.
Wasting time, and energy. First day the course is from 9am to 12 midnight ok. I did not regret not finishing it but regreted agreeing of going. Everyone have their own type defence mechanism. I choose this time to run away, regretless. 
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| I am fealing hot flushes through my body and sense of frustration through my head, getting agitated really easily. Managers are supposedly to help with making decisions, or rather make the necessary decisions and we will follow up. Being new is not an excuse. Been here long enough to see enough and know to start. Why does things fall apart? Why isn't things falling into place as it should always be. Who is in control and who is in control who is not doing their job. Flying blames around do make the person feel better cause obviously he thinks is not his damn fault.
Working in an NGO is not as easy. and with people thinks in this place they can dictate you around is all no no. We have to do from patient related things, nurse related things to marketing and public relations. One can see how much effort that have been put into it, not meerly doing some bingo sessions and thats it. If you can download songs online DURING office hours, i bet you are able to do more things during daycare or take SOME bloody responsibilities around other than just passing it down.
Sometimes i think, why are we paying so much for his ass to have a place to rest. I guess what he said woking in limkokwing has taught him to survive in the working world has been justified - learn how to talk cock. 
*sorry..Language over boundaries but emotions not.
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| Not everybody experience the same thing or go through the same situation. There are bound to be some different detail as it goes. As such, humans are made all different and unique, all beautiful in God's eyes. My sister once told me, men are visual beings.i now agree which some men are, some men arent. How sure? No one would love me like God does, even so would not love me like my parents. Maybe some. Could be none. Why does everything in this world not defined right down to the core? Something must be left unknown and not fully understandable or comprehendable. Which sometimes we guess, we assume, or we get influenced by some opinion. Da vinci code-fiction? The book of revelation, what would EXACTLY happen at the end? Superman movie, does it stop there? got superman returns part 2? fairy tales- happily ever after?
Who would know? just assume lah. Aii, having a tough battle inside my heart and head. Just my 1 sen thought which probably is crap. See, even this is can't be sure. yeeshh... | | |
| I have been stripped today (during holiday) via sms that informed me that the performance that we're organizing, the performer's father asked for a postpone! Tickets are printed, poster send out, sponsor contacted and things were on a roll and then suddenly a pie comes flying over and just accidentally, out of no where splat on you fully maked-up face which took a whole load of time and strength getting up and coloring it simetrically. I don't know whats next. Just one day off office and this immense news, they HAD to tell me now. HOW LORD? what do i do? do nothing now? stop the sale of concert tickets? wait and see what happens on monday? start writing apologies-sorry for any inconvenience caused letters?
do a memo? start threatening the 'father' with the -if-u-don't-send-your-son-here,-OR ELSE? I am blunt. and I'm sitting here in Gurney Hotel feeling helpless not back at the office to start pissing off some people.
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